|Comments:||Your story hit all too close to home. It brought tears and old memories. In some areas we walked the same path. I carry the physical marks of some of the beatings today. I stand with you knowing it stops here and now - I too would never want anyone else to know that kind of hell. Thanks to you I know its time to write and share my story, I know it won't be the easiest task. You have indeed earned every award given and then some. May God be with you and keep you from harm. A sister in kind.|
|Web Site:||Diana's Heaven|
|Comments:||Susan:Oh MY... What a story... It brought tears to my eyes... You see I went through emotional issues..I am doing a My Story on my page...I hope you never ever have to live that way again... I am so glad that you were able to get out... I know how hard that must have been..I am so sorry that you as a child had to live that way. My heart goes out to you...Thank you much for a visit I will never forget...Please visit me soon and be sure to sign my GB,so that I will know that you were there please..God Bless You and Yours...Diana
|Guest Name:||one of your sisters|
|Comments:||I read your thoughts today under the pictures. You are a good writer. I wish we lived closer to each other. I would love the chance to really get to know you- as adults. Talk to you soon. Love you!!!|
|Web Site:||Jesus and Me|
|Comments:||I like my visit and the music too. Great Pics.
|Web Site:||tinksmeadow and stuff :)|
|Comments:||Just came by to wish you and your's a Very Happy Valentien's! You can find my Valentien's page for all my net friends by going to my url :) I have really enjoyed my visit at your place :)I love you new look, your graphic's are really nice. Tink|
|Web Site:||Christian Web Site|
|Comments:||What a lovely site! I especially loved the Rainbow Bridge page.|
|Web Site:||Cullen's Guardian Angels|
|Comments:||Susan, thank you for creating this beautiful site and for having the courage to share your touching story. I'm so sorry you and your siblings had to endure so much abuse. You've obviously made some excellent choices to overcome the effects. God Bless you!
|Web Site:||Sherrycats Home|
|Comments:||I'm very glad I stopped into your pages. I love your backgrounds, you are an artist. Your feline family is adorable. I'm owned by 4 cats. Tigger was awake and enjoyed them also.Sherry|
|Comments:||STILL THINKING OF YOUPROBABLY ALWAYS WILL|
|Guest Name:||Anne Robbins|
|Web Site:||Agape Outreach|
|Comments:||You have a beautiful website. God bless you!
|Web Site:||Morningstars Drea,s|
|Comments:||Your site is breathtaking! Enjoyed my time with you and enjoyed sharing.Please keep up the great work that you have been doing and will be looking forward to more of your work.|
|Guest Name:||Barbara and Bill|
|Web Site:||Barbara and Bills best of the web jpgs and gifs.|
|Comments:||You have done a great job on your web site. Barb and Bill|
|Guest Name:||Gary and Debbie|
|Web Site:||A Scoff an' Scuff|
|Comments:||Enjoyed your pages. Your story of being an abused child was so sad, but you are such an inspiration that you took responsibility for yourself at age 18 and didn't let those bad years hinder your progress as a person. Cute cats, too. Thought the one cat was huge! Are you sure he isn't a mountain lion?|
|Guest Name:||Carrie Nelson|
|Comments:||Susan, hello my name is Carrie. I am currently a student at a local junior college and taking a sociology class. We were assigned to do a research paper and i chose the topic...Abused children...are they more likely to abuse when they get older. I read your story, and have come up with my hypothesis. This is one of the most sad stories that i have ever read or heard about. I am truly sorry that you had to experience this. My sympathy goes out to you and your siblings. I am so glad that you have been able to overcome this tragedy, and go on with your life. A lot of people are not capable of doing so. My heart goes out to all the ones that have had to deal with this kind of abuse, or any kind, at that. Well, I am so glad that you are happy now, you deserve it more than anything. With most sincerity, Carrie|
|Comments:||Just popped in to wish you and your a very Happy Thanksgiving. Tink|
|Comments:||Just finished looking at your Rainbow bridge pages... very nice...comforting to know that my Cookie is safe and happy at that better place that we had to send her this past Tuesday...She was almost 14 and had not been feeling very well for quite a while...Because we love her so much we made the decision to let her go..Now she dosen't hurt ay more...I learned about Rainbow Bridge from our vet..He sent us a sympathy card and enclosed in the card was a poem entitled Rainbow Bridge..Of course it made me cry all over again but somehow i felt better..Thanks again foryour Rainbow Bridge page...Hugs Judy|
|Comments:||Susan - It shouldn't hurt to be a kid, and sometimes it does. I am so so sorry that it happened to you. Thank you for being you and for being strong enough to share your story. I am sure that many have no idea how painful childhood can be and how frustrating it is to have no control over what happens. God loves you.|
|Web Site:||The Home of Virtues|
|Comments:||Your site is very moving. I am sorry for what happened to you and I wish you the very best for the future. I am proud that you have made the buck stop with you, I hope others do as well.|
|Web Site:||Heavely Gifs|
|Comments:||My heart goes out to you. I will pray for you.God Blessh
|Web Site:||Bleedingpuke's New Home Page|
|Comments:||i would just like to say that you are doing a very wonderful job with your web page :) ive read your story and kinda relate to some of the things you have said. I know when i have kids, i will never treat them the way my parents have treated me. I am going to add your link to my web page :) take care!!! BP|
|Web Site:||IN LOVING MEMORY OF DAVID A. DILL|
|Comments:||DEAREST SUSAN, I AM SO DEEPLY SORRY FOR THE SUFFERING YOU HAVE ENDURED IN YOUR LIFE. ALL OF THE ABUSE..STILL YOUR HEART IS PURE AND KIND. I LOVED YOUR POEM CALLED :GOLD:. YOU HAVE THE ONE OF THE MOST TOUCHING MEMORIALSITES I HAVE EVER VISITED. MAY THE LOVE OF CHRIST HELP YOU THROUGH ALL YOU ATTEMPT IN LIFE. KEEP UP THE WONDERFUL WORK. THIS WORLD NEEDS MORE PEOPLE LIKE YOU IN IT.. GOD BLESS YOU SUSAN. SINCERELY, TINA TAPPY|
|Web Site:||Your Awards|
|Comments:||Thank you for signing my guestbook, and sharing with me your website :-) You have a lovely website, I didn't see anything to show that you are in any webrings? I wish you would take a look at Yellow Rose Sister's webring, and maybe join us. we would love to have you in our little family. You would find it to have loving and caring people. I hope you will visit us at http://www.angelfire.com/sc2/YellowRose/ I hope to see you there soon :-) I'm head of the Yellow Rose Sister's Birthday / Anniversary Club I would like you to have this gift|
|Web Site:||Escape From Reality|
|Comments:||Hi, My compliments for your beautifull homepages.
I love it very much, keep up the good work..
Byebye from Els.
|Web Site:||Welcome to Waterlily's|
|Comments:||Hi Susan; Just stopped in to have a look. I clicked on one of your awards that linked to it. What an incredible story. It really moved me. You must have an enormous amount of strength to have survived such abuse. Thanks for sharing your story! Susan|
|Web Site:||JoAnn's Reliv Site|
|Comments:||You have a very nice website. I read your storry., and was very touched by it. I was very blessed in growing up. I had a wonderful childhood. God has been so good to me. I have a wonderful husband who is a minister and three chrilden and 7 grand-kids. I count my blessings. Thank you for letting me visit. Jo Ann|
|Web Site:||Tommy and Pat's Home|
|Comments:||YOu have a very good site. Your life story as a child is very touching. I hate child abuse. Please visit me and let me know you came by.
|Guest Name:||Cathy Hildebrand|
|Comments:||I too suffered from mental & physical abuse growing up in Chicago.|
|Comments:||I do believe you have told my story! And, I applaud your courage to speak out! Yes, the cycle must, and will, be broken with us. The surviors!! God be with you.Dana|
|Web Site:||All About Dianna|
|Comments:||Thank you for sharing your story, May God bless you for being strong enough to help others. Please keep up the good work so another child won't have to know years of abuse. I will keep yo in my prayers|
|Guest Name:||Martha Miranda Miller|
|Web Site:||The Sparrows Nest|
|Comments:||It took a lot of courage for you to tell your story on the Net, and I salute you for that. I do not believe our society thinks the problem is as rampant as it is. Seeing as I have a woman's ministry and along with women come babies and children, I am familiar with all manners of abuses done, unspeakable things. I do not discount physical abuse as being the worst, yet there are emotional and spiritual abuses that simply crush one's heart, soul and spirit, and sometimes beyond repair. The scars are always there and it takes little to open them up all over again. Thank you for sharing your story and making yourself so vulnerable. Besides our website, we have a restaurant here in Easley, S.C., called The Sparrows Nest where scripture plaques line the walls. If you are ever in our town, please stop in for some good home cookin' and Jesus fellowship. This is truly a site of life giving water, and I thank you for allowing me to put in my droplet in this great running river of life that flows around the world for Jesus. Love and prayers, Martha|
DEBBIE - 09/14/99 13:11:25||Comments:|
Susan, this is truely an amazing story and I am very sorry for what happened to you and S. I know things are much better for you and I know that things will continue to be even greater. As you know I have 2 children myself and I could not even begin to think of something like this happening to them. I commend you and you are very strong for hanging in there.Debbie
ROB,STACEY AND KAYLA NEWTON - 09/14/99 04:18:52|
My URL:http://community-1.webtv.net/KaylasDad96/DADDYSLITT LEANGEL/
how did you find me?: SURFIN'
I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE TO GO THROUGH YOUR SITE YET , BUT I SURE PLAN ON IT !! IF YOU ARE GIVEN THE CHANCE STOP BY OURS...NOTHING SPECTACULAR JUST MADE FOR A THREE YEAR OLD AND HER DADDY !
Rosie - 09/13/99 03:14:48|
My Email:email@example.com et
how did you find me?: you visited my place...
Susan, Susan, Susan...I would like to start, by saying...I LOVE YOU!!!...I am writing you through tears, that are streaming on my keyboard...and I wish I could just put my arm's around you, and give you the biggest hug!!!...that may sound strange coming f om a total stranger, but after reading your life experience's, my heart has been so touched...I truly feel your pain, but I also feel that you have won the "VICTORY THROUGH YOUR SPIRITUAL FAITH"...this took great courage for you to share your horrid child ood story...thank you for allowing me the privilege of reading this...and thank you for visiting my place and saying such kind word's in my GB...BLESS YOU BUNCHES!!!...Rosie
Lloyd Peterson - 09/12/99 19:42:47|
My URL:htt p://www.geocities.com/SouthBeach/Strand/5225/
how did you find me?: you signed my Guestbook
You are truely Inspired, and went through one of the lives I have dedicated my life in preventing in my Homepages. I hope you did not use up a box of kleenex reading it and enjoyed the childrens humor. Thank you for your kind words in my guestbook. God Ble ss You and sent the right man your way.
Carolyn - 09/12/99 03:16:26|
how did you find me?: Link on e-mail
I can't begin to say "I understand" but, I do know first hand what it is to live the life of an abused child. Nothing near the extent of your childhood but, abuse just the same. I can honestly say I have NO pleasant memories from childhood. I made it my go al in life to raise my children with memories they would always cherish. Shouldn't that be a "right" to every child? As teachers, my husband and I took in several abused children over the years. More abuse by neglect than the physical and mental abuse yo lived through. My son is now married to a girl who had a childhood simular to yours. I know the pain she still lives with every day. The title of Mother or Father is earned...Not merely because you gave life to a child but, by the kind of life and love y u give them. I'm proud of you Susan...You're a survivor!
Deb - 09/12/99 00:34:22|
how did you find me?: Link on your e-mail signature
You have done a wonderful job!!! I feel you have come a long way, and should be so very proud of who you are. Thank you for sharing this story to let others know there is a light at the end of that dark tunnel. I am proud to call you my friend. Secrets sh red can mean a lifetime of healing. Keep up the good work.
DEborah - 09/06/99 01:10:26|
My Email:firstname.lastname@example.org a>
how did you find me?: From YOU....
Thanks for sharing your story...your life... Its people like you who teach others the signs...and what to look for in an abuse situation.....its men like your dad who want to help and just can't untill the time is right....and then doing the very best he can.... Thank God we have better laws now that ever....but it came with a price...and you are part of that price... You have over come...and turned out to be a wonderful person....My hats of to you....Susan Keep up the good work.....
Ellen - 08/27/99 00:09:48|
how did you find me?: You told me!!
Hey, I like the picture, you're just getting too good on this Internet....Thanks for sharing and enjoy your long weekend!
Trace - 08/24/99 15:24:09|
My URL:http://community-1.webtv.net/TracesofLUV/TRACESOF LUVsPlacein/
My Email:TracesofLUV@webtv.net a>
how did you find me?: the Lord led me here!
Praise the Lord you are no longer a victim! There is victory in Jesus! May God Be with You! Love in Christ! Trace please visit me sometime!
PP - 08/19/99 22:53:56|
how did you find me?: fate
Lookin' Good in the picture!!!!! Love Ya!!!!
Penny - 08/18/99 23:17:36|
My URL:http: //members.tripod.com/~redlucey/index.html
how did you find me?: A.D.Cats, and A.D.Pride
Susan, your story is heartbreaking, and your bravery a symbol to all abused children. I am sorry that you had to face that terrable ordeal, but glad you are a survivor, and that we can share our friendship. Like you, I am still waiting for Mr. Right, but e have to be choosy, and some day, God WILL bring him into both of our lives. God Bless you Susan!
Roger Dean Kiser, Sr. - 08/15/99 22:13:42|
My URL:http:// www.geocities.com/athens/rhodes/3055/
My Email:Trampolineone@webtv.n et
how did you find me?: Message board
Your website was very moving and I see that I have found another friend who really understands what I am talking about when I write my stories of abuse.
Susan - 08/07/99 18:45:34|
how did you find me?: I wrote this
P, you have no reason to feel guilt. You are one of my younger sisters and it was never your responsibility to protect S and I. I love you. Your oldest sister Susan
P - 08/03/99 19:28:49|
how did you find me?: You know! :0)
Every time I read your story it still makes me cry. I think it is because I still feel a sense of guilt. Someday the piece of work called "Mother" will get hers. Talk to you soon. :o)
Amy - 07/24/99 14:18:35|
how did you find me?: surfin the net
Thank you for attempting to educate about this issue
Georgge - 07/17/99 15:13:39|
My URL:http://www.geocities.com/CapitolHill/Lobby/7912/mia.ht ml
how did you find me?: newsgroup
Your story was like a made for tv movie on Lifetime.My parents belied in corporal punsment.Mainly spanking.But they gave me everything I wanted.I'm glad I found your homepage
Linda - 07/14/99 04:06:55|
how did you find me?: adcats
Your story brought tears to my eyes, one of my best friends suffered abuse too from her adoptive parents. She didn't even know she was adopted until age 29! I know the emotional damage that abuse causes, although in my case the physical far less than the erbal abuse I suffered. My adoptive mother passed away in March, the end of the verbal abuse for me at age 49. Thank you for sharing your story, it is very healing knowing you are doing something to educate people about child abuse. Take care now, Linda
Ronald - 07/04/99 23:09:14|
how did you find me?: Checking out Yahoo/Geocities neighborhoods
Your Mother is a nut!
Tina - 07/04/99 11:55:37|
Extended Family Member - 07/04/99 11:55:06
I knew you and S had a really bad time of it from what I heard from P, but I don't think I was aware of exactly how bad. It's hard to believe people can be aware of that kind of abuse and not step in to help. I'm sorry for what you went through, no chil or anyone for that matter should have to suffer that type of abuse. I've known your family since you were in foster homes and I ended up with P as a sister, which I'd never had before. I'm glad I was there to see the family put back together. S will always have a special place in my heart as he was there at a time when I really needed someone. You and your sisters and brother are all great people and I wish you all the best.
your other sister "PP" - 06/30/99 17:54:27||Comments:|
I guess the old saying could apply here, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. We all have had life experiences that we question why this could happen, but for some reason they do and that is what makes us be the people we are today. I wish our childhood was different, but we can't change the past, only go on with the present and look forward to the future. I'm happy we had our short time together as a "normal" family. I feel very lucky to have you, S, P and J as my brother and sisters.
Valerie - 06/30/99 00:44:28|
My URL:http://www.angel fire.com/on2/buskid
Your site was so encouraging that I decided to tell my story! Thanks for signing my guestbook on our family site!
Karyn - 06/27/99 13:14:10|
My URL:http://in progress
Dear Susan:I wrote yo quite a lengthy response of my own story.......I hope you were not scared by a man's name(Ernest Utter)being there.....I am inded a woman......I was so excited by my web tv that he let me use his credit card # because I did not have y Visa card with me. Wishng you well!
Mother Dearest - 06/24/99 15:02:22|
Listen Susan,I'm tired of all this belly-aching. You have all these people feeling sorry for all you kids. You tell that Brenda to bring it on. I can still kick ass with the best of them. I loved you kids. You kids just needed love and discipline. I deser e some credit. You kids never would have learned the five finger throw-down method, the porcelain take-down or the helicopter. You kids turned out ok. You five kids are still a bunch of little pisspots. I want some more hairnets for my birthday. You don't want to anger me Susie.Love Mother
Brenda - 06/22/99 13:34:05|
I have been privileged to call your sister "P" my dear friend for years now. I know your pain and your heart ache and the truth in your story. There is a special hell for mothers like yours and like mine. I too have survived and am "normal". Most people do not have the capacity to even comprehend what your life was like. I tried to email the woman who wrote in your guestbook as your mother. How brave of you to leave that message there. I am constantly reminding myself that we don't get to pick what appens to us only how we respond. Thank you for sharing your story in such a public forum, I have never been able to do that. My mother was abusive to only 2 of her 5 children, me and my second to youngest sister. I have never understood why she only h rt the two of us except to say that we looked alike when we were younger. Who is to ever understand the evil in these kinds of women. Good luck and keep mending yourself. I am not surprised that it was "P" who told your Dad everything. She still looks out for kids who are hurting and is not afraid to step in.
Peggy - 06/22/99 06:37:38|
You are going to hate me, please don't. I was not abused as a child but I was an ABUSED WIFE. I just try and make other people understand, I never tell my story unless asked. I Know every one has to deal with as they feel comfortable. Love your self and forget about others. I CARE !!!! for you
P.Grant - 06/17/99 21:51:02||Comments:|
Mary - 06/14/99 02:39:12||Comments:|
I've told you in person how proud I am that you were able to do this and since I was P's foster mother I can vouch for your story. I've prayed a lot for your family over the years and was pleased to connect with you again when I started working where you do. God bless you.
Mary - 06/14/99 02:17:22|
Jan - 06/11/99 00:35:44||Comments:|
My heart was heavy when I read your story. God Bless & may your future be even brighter than your insight has been -- Jan
Belinda - 06/07/99 22:59:34||Comments:|
You are one of the ones with a happy ending, I am glad.
your youngest sister - 05/30/99 20:42:43||Comments:|
it makes me sad to think that Mother could wake up, every morning knowing that she beat the crap out of her two oldest children every day of their childhood she is a sick woman that we are all better off without her!!!!!!!
Paulette - 05/27/99 03:42:35|
This is an extremely tragic story but you are truly a survivor; proof that there is always hope.
Your sister-in-law - 05/26/99 02:53:50||Comments:|
Dear Susan,Please forgive my jokester husband, your twin. I promise to tie his hands and keep him away from your guestbook! I am glad you did this. It is just another step towards gaining the inner peace you so deserve. Having the courage to tell your story helps you and other people who have also been abused. Way to go, Sue!!
Mother Dearest - 05/26/99 02:28:23|
Listen Susan, I tried my best with you kids. I loved you kids. At least I didn't hang out in the bars. You need to listen to your doctor you little pisspot. Mother
SEARS 2 - 05/26/99 00:55:39|
I CANNOT BELIEVE A PERSON COULD BE CRAZY ENOUGH TO HIT A KID OR DO SOMETHING TO HURT SUCH A SMALL PERSON. GOD SAYS AN EYE FOR AN EYE. GOD WILL BE THE ONE TO MAKE THIS RIGHT. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO HAVE A PERSON IN IT DOING SAD THINGS LIKE THIS. GOD HAS SPECIAL PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND YOU ARE ONE OF THEM. YOU ARE SO STRONG TO BE ABLE TO WRITE THIS. YOU HAVE A GOOD HEART. GOOD THINGS WILL COME TO THOSE THAT CARE A LOT.
Rich - 05/25/99 02:18:23|
My URL:http://www.geocities.com:80/Hollywood/Land/5676/inde x.html
It was a very brave of you to write this. Your story saddend my deeply. I didn't have a "model" chidhood either, but nothing like what you had to endure. It makes no sense to me how a parent can do something like that. If you ever need someone to talk to, my e-mail address is above. Anytime.
Your sister - 05/25/99 01:21:30||Comments:|
Ok..so Mrs. Smith did make you laugh, You remember Mrs. Smith right??? I think writing your story was a great idea. It was a way to vent some of those feelings that we all share. Good therapy. I just wish Mrs. Smith would read it and respond. Now she is a piece of work isn't she????Talk to you soon!!
Molly - 05/24/99 22:04:47||Comments:|
God Bless you all, I read these entries and after reading the story I just read, I am so happy your family and especially your twin has a sense of humor. I can't even imagine the childhood you kids had with your Mother. I am so glad you all turned out ok Molly
Susan S - 05/24/99 14:47:02||Comments:|
Susan, you sure have come a long way. I am very sorry that you did not have the childhood that you and every child deserves - peace, joy and love. We are glad that you became the person you did. You are well liked and respected by the people you work with. Thank you for sharing your story.
Susan S - 05/24/99 14:04:31|
I met your sisters and you all look alike! Does your twin look like you too? Your sisters were all nice too! Why was your brother so mean? You must have received the nice genes. (ha ha) Thanks for helping me to learn to navigate in the internet. I wont make it in the 21st Century if we look like The Jettsons.
TABATHA - 05/23/99 20:42:11|
My URL:http://w ww.geocities.com/Petsburgh/Zoo/3505
Iam so glad that you finally got to a point in your life where you could write & share what has happened. I know after writing my story that I felt a little better. By sharing what we went through we are going to help others by letting them know that the aren't alone & that they can survive. I know I just recently started talking with you but I know you well enough to say that you are a terrific person. Keep your head held high. I wish you the best. God Bless You---Tabatha
Ruth - 05/23/99 14:49:57||Comments:|
Hi Sue, Your Dad And I Are Very Proud Of You For Being So Brave To Do This I Don't Think I Could Love Dad & Ruth
Your Twin - 05/23/99 12:42:48||Comments:|
Couldn't keep from trying to ruffle your feathers Sue Ha Ha, how did you like hearing from Mrs Smth and Dr Egir, Ha Ha Love Your Twin
Patricia Smith - 05/23/99 04:33:53||Comments:|
My dearest Susan... I think about you often and I know we have to talk. Please call me soon,,,,Love always
Dr. William Egir - 05/23/99 02:42:22||Comments:|
Susan, You know I recommended that you take your medication twice a day. Everything will be okay, just come to my office and stop this charade. I know your upset that you were an only child. You know the medical profession is working on a cure for your mental con dition. Help is only a phonecall away. Sincerely Dr. Egir
Nancy - 05/22/99 00:50:05|
Hi Sue, Your letter was very touching. I am sorry you had to live like that through your childhood. I couldn't even imagine! I am happy that you are who you are today. A WONDERFUL PERSON! Take care and write when you can.